"I still remember this picture vividly to this today"

Dear Akid, 

Tomorrow is your birthday, and even though we don’t talk anymore, I still find myself thinking about you. I don’t know if you ever think of me, but a part of me always wonders just for a moment if you’ll reach out. I know you won’t, and I know I shouldn’t expect you to, but the thought still lingers. 

I’ve been thinking about you more lately, not just because of your birthday but because there are still pieces of you that stay with me. I thought time would erase them by now, but some memories don’t fade as easily as I’d hoped. Maybe it’s you that I miss, or maybe it’s the feeling of being close to someone who once knew me so well. Either way, I can’t deny that you were one of the best gifts life ever gave me—and losing you was one of my greatest griefs. 

You were my home—the place where I felt safe, understood, and at peace. No matter how chaotic the world was, I always found comfort in you. And maybe that’s why losing you felt like losing more than just a person; it felt like losing a part of myself. You were my forever home, or at least I thought you were. But sometimes, life has a way of showing us that even the places we believe we belong aren’t meant to shelter us forever.

I keep telling myself that I’ve moved on, and in many ways, I have. But then moments like this remind me that some feelings don’t just disappear, even when a relationship ends. Maybe it’s just the habit of remembering, or maybe it’s something deeper. Either way, I’ve learned that healing isn’t a straight line, and sometimes, missing you is just part of the process. 

I’m not writing this because I want things to change, and I’m not expecting anything from you. I guess I just needed to let this out somewhere. No matter what happened between us, you were an important part of my life, and I can’t pretend that your birthday doesn’t remind me of that. 

So, wherever you are, I hope you’re happy. I hope life is treating you well. And even though I won’t say it out loud, I do still wish you a happy birthday. 

And if one day we cross paths again, I hope you still carry the memories we shared. I know I always will—because some people, no matter how far they drift leave an imprint that time cannot erase.

Take care and Happy Birthday my favourite person.

Sincerely,

Anicha