Letting go doesn't happen when we have reasoning or permission to let go. Letting go happens when we come to terms with the fact that someone wasn't our person, that a relationship wasn't our forever, that we have to move forward and go into the world and find those who want to love us and care for us, because we deserve it. And isn't that something we can give to ourselves?

And this is a difficult emotion to hold within a human heart; this is a difficult lesson to learn. It is okay to find this heavy, it is okay to struggle with moving on from the unknowns. But we have to forgive people for not being able to love us, or leave us, the way we deserved to be loved and left. We have to forgive human beings for not being at a point in their own healing or emotion to be gentle with our hearts. We have to forgive the people we have lost for leaving the way they left.

Because when we forgive the situation, we say:

"While this may hurt and while I may never understand why I had to break this way, this circumstance cannot, and will not, keep me here in this hurt. It will not keep me here in this feeling, in this resentment, in this pain. I choose to let this pain go. I cannot keep this ache alive inside of me. I have to feel it, acknowledge it and let it go. I have to move forward, I have to give myself permission to allow the chapter to go unamended, to allow the loose ends to stay loose, to not grip at needing a perfect conclusion, but rather to rewrite my healing and my story in a way that allow for me to go out into the world and find what I truly deserve.

To find what was actually for me. 

5.7.2024 such a meaningful date to me but now it becomes a memory"